The Conflict between -
The Being and The Doing.
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"What Is" / The Life / Existence as such comprises of Being and Knowing only. It is always ever so entirely and totally free from "Doing".
This Being and Knowing, together form and are manifestation of the Existence.
Being and Knowing couldn't be there in isolation from one another. Still we tend to distinguish between the two and it's the only reason of all the conflict.
The Physical body is an expression of Being while it is what it is and with what happens in and through it.
Though we "know" it performs certain things, how this all happens, we hardly know. Science can and sure tries to find out a certain pattern and order in the society many activities that take place within this body and may perhaps some day work out the whole "mapping" too.
Still all this happens only according to certain pre-designed program and the same is only "run" later on while we're "alive". The formation of new cells and the decay and degeneration of the old is the salient feature of all this pattern.
Could we possibly think that just as this happens in the smallest cell and also in a whole organism are but parts of a close circuit network?
Could we say in this way the nature as a whole is a unique phenomenon and all is one and one is all?
If we see it's true then where is the scope for individual will or freedom of choice for anything and anyone?
Being is therefore happening and in the happening there is no one Who could be said to have control over this process? Just Because even if the role of someone who regulates and controls the Life of all this, where could we possibly locate Him Her or that someone?
At the individual level though we tend to associate the actions performed by the body with someone who possesses and is possessed by this organism / organic unit that we call the physical body, we hardly know and couldn't locate where exactly is its place in the body.
And we all speak in a way that causes and enhances the conflict even more.
We say : I play, run, sleep and the like, while we know pretty well that this all is performed by the body only. Maybe, we have a certain control over them. While walking or running if I need to stop, the body follows at once the command. In the same way I appear to have control over my bodily activities. Still I may need to visit a doctor if anything goes wrong there. When there is any such a need or I need something to be done, this is called a desire. Do I desire or does the desire itself happens to me? A desire, a wish, a good or bad feeling just "happens" to us and we either like, dislike, love or hate the same. We can even try to condemn, glorify, suppress or ignore it, still it is there and may be we could replace it by the memory of another better or worse, we never "do" it. So where is the role of the "doing" in all this?
Maybe, we could through attention and awareness, know and learn how not to be possessed or overwhelmed by this or any other a weak or a strong feeling.
But could we say that the attention and awareness "do" anything, do they really have any role in understanding why and how a desire, a feeling springs up and we inadvertently, knowingly, willingly get indulged in it?
Isn't Attention and Awareness are there because of my interest and a deep urge for understanding the thing? What word we give to this urge, it's not important.
Either way we can never interfere with what "happens" to us or in general in the "Life" yet we can sure have a freedom, an urge to understand what it's all about.
Fear, anger, doubt, desire, hatred all are as such feelings looking of different kinds but nevertheless all "happen" to us, and we can only be "Aware" of their presence. We can never do anything about them.
So long as we think we can "change" the world or anything in the world, we are a slave to this thought, but if at the same time we carefully see this paradox, its no more there.
Then you just know, see the underlying light of the Attention and Awareness of Being and Knowing.
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